Friday, October 2, 2009

DEAR SISTER,


I MISS YOU SISTER LIKE A THUMB CUT FROM MY HAND.

I HAVEN'T SLEPT IN YEARS,
YOU KEEP CALLING ME IN MY DREAMS.

HOW DO I MAKE MY WAY BACK TO YOU?

ALL NIGHT I SEARCH FOR YOU ONLY TO AWAKEN EXHAUSTED AND ALONE.

YOUR NEED FOR ME CROSSES TIME AND SPACE.
MY NEED FOR YOU, CROSSES ME.

MEMORIES OF YOU CHURN, AGITATE, TOSS AND TURN ME.

I'M SORRY FOR YOU,
I'M SORRY FOR ME WITHOUT YOU.

SINCE YOUR DEATH,
IT HAS TAKEN YEARS FOR ME TO MOVE FORWARD, AT TIMES I FALL BACK STILL.

LIKE A HAND WITHOUT A THUMB, I CEASE TO FUNCTION.

I'M WAITING FOR YOU, BEHIND MY THOUGHTS, IN MY DREAMS.

DO I REALLY EXPECT YOUR RETURN?
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My sister, June, was murdered by her boyfriend on October 28, 1999. What is it about a 10 year anniversary that makes one stand still? I am haunted, hunted, and caged by grief. I struggle to remember her life, but sadly, I'm tormented by her violent death. Peace come to me, please. I love you JuneBug.

--Victoria Hart

7 comments:

  1. Victoria,
    My sister, Jamie and I, lost our sister Lynn in Sept. of 1999. She lost her life in a car accident though. I'm so sorry for your loss. I still feel her with us many times as I'm sure your sister is with you as well.
    Have a wonderful weekend.
    Peace, Jodi D.

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  2. Thank you Jodi, I'm sorry for your loss. Sisters, they are a mirror reflection of us. I so appreciate your comment. Peace to you.

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  3. wow. what a hauntingly beautiful poem.

    I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what that would be like to experience.

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  4. Those left behind are the living victims; grief remains a constant as questions remain unanswered forever.
    Thank you for your compassion.
    -V

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  5. Your words are so vivid....moving.

    I'm so sorry about your sister.

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  6. What a horrible thing to have to live with, I cannot even imagine the grief you must be feeling to have lost a sibling in this way.

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  7. From Facebook, Ruthanne wrote: Both beautiful and sad. I can't imagine my life without my sisters. Thanks for sharing Victoria.

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