Thursday, September 10, 2009

Chronically Chronic

Well, it has been 5 weeks of illness; germs followed my baby girl home from the school and attached themselves to moi. I have a diagnosis of bronchitis, but fear, fear, fear, the run amuck villain, swine flu. The doc and I are attempting to "kill" this with a second round of antibiotics, (could this one be any stronger than the last?), and the various other palliative care treatments. I am exhausted to the literal point of tears.
Tomorrow, I look forward to yet another blood draw to test for the good ol' villain at the local hospital. Yes, I am being cynical, but one would not have to see too far to notice that I am wanting desperately for some semblance of my life returned to me. I want to feel well enough, to not just walk from one side of my home to the other, but to be able to steadily leave the house in search of something thats makes me smile. I'm not feeling hopeful after 5 wks, needless to say.
Tomorrow, I also will very much miss my community of potter friends at my local clay center of which I have been a joyful member for many years. Clay makes me smile, but I will have to wait for that pleasure along with many others for now.
Wish me well on my quest to beat the bronchitis or the "villain" if that's the case. Diabetes, asthma, and the relentless PTSD are hanging tightly by my side, jumping in every now and then to put their "two cents" in...I've stopped listening for just a while, back to bed.


  1. I am so sorry to hear about all this sickness & I hope all will be well.....but I have to tell you-I am so jealous!!! I have wanted to write a blog for so long.....Maybe this will get me started!!! Good luck

  2. Gosh, Victoria, I hope you begin to feel better. I have had bronchitis for several months now and have been through 2 rounds of antibiotics also. I really want to be completely well, just in case I get the flu this winter!
    Love your blog and easy to get on here.

    Take care of yourself!!

    Suzanne xoxo

  3. Sending LOVE LOVE LOVE -e

  4. Victoria, how brave you are...we are, aren't we? It's a bitch being a hopeless romantic in this day and age...wanting someone to know the real you and love you anyway or because of it. I feel your pain, your seclusion. I hope some day we have the chance to meet and talk about all this. You would understand what I have to contribute as I understand your sharing spirit. Much love and blessings for you and your family. Hang in there, this too, shall pass. Connie

  5. Connie, stop by and post some of your inner beauty anytime; I welcome your spirit to my blog.

  6. I cried reading your latest addition. Cried. Your writing pulled it from me like ripping a piece of long settled tape from a box hidden in the attic for too are a wonderful writer, seems natural for you. I have to really work for mine, but I don't mind as long as I have friends like you to help me prioritize. Love to you and blessings on all. Connie